Pregnancy Brain

This blog is going to be all different from my other ether you know it or not. It's just some trick for me to feel myself alive. to be honest i'd like to have some badass camera to take nice photos of myself and Photoshop them to look nice just to convince me I am that good.

That's a long story to explain.

What I don't want it to be is me again telling about books and movies. That's stupid and that's just not  me. I want this to be all about me.

So, to start with I'm about 16 weeks pregnant and I hate how it feels. And that's what I want to talk about most of all. I'm quite incline to be depressed and that's really has nothing to do with what's going on around, that's just how my brain chemistry works or more accurate to say - how it sucks, lol! So I don't really need something bad to happen to feel sad like it's just too much and I can't stand any more as well as I need nothing good to happen to feel extremely high, you can take it like advantage of being slightly bipolar.

I feel like the saddest loser in the world and I'm always so concerned about how I look, I need to feel myself at least OK to be OK, and now I just hate being me. I feel as nice and attractive as a pile of shit. Being pregnant me really really sucks. All I really think about is will it be some happiness for me in future?

Ok, now I'll show some pictures, I'm about the same term as Anna Paquin who also is looking her worse.

More pictures at JJ Same about Reese Witherspoon but her bump already shows

Now, for the saddest part! Look at those who gave birth already. I've picked Jennifer Garner, who had her son in the begining of march. She used always to be so super slim with beautiful arms. Now that arms are round.

And one more is Hilary Duff.

so... just kill me now... ok I'm going to tumblr to look at smth really nice and to cheer up! I need some joy to look forward that it will really be not so bad.